I think its been awhile i didnt write anythin on my blog..
Ntahla..mybe i just dont have enough skill or attraction to have many followers just like others..
Maybe im not as popular as some people..pnuh je pengikut diorg..
Maybe im so lazy and buzy these days..
Maybe nobody want to read my blog..
And maybe its time for me to retire from write anythin on this blog..
Oh..i hates it but i have to do it..
So, i hope all the best for you all..Have the nice time blogging!

P/s : Should i retire from this blogging or not?Please put your comment,vote whether 'yes' or 'no' and reason why you think so..I will stop blogging if:
1)The vote call it the end of road for me
2)insufficient of voters
3)I gave up.

Its been 3 weeks since the day i picked up my foot(leg) injury.
It was the result of a hard tackle by one of the opponent's player.
Might be my joint was dislocated..
And there is no recover sign yet since i do feel the pain everyday..
I always got myself injured but this time is a bit serious..
Oh..I've been through this hell for quite some times ..
Bila lah maw sembuh nih.. :(

Did you guys ever thought what is actually mean by love?
Oh..for me it is undescribable. It is a phenomenon which will happened to everyone.
Nobody can escape from it. Some people do feel it in an early age and the others on their later stages.
Almost a complete year i try to convince myself that love is a bad thing and it always bring disasters to some hearts. Even on last week Valentine's day, i keep on saying to myself that i never celebrate it before and i shouldn't celebrate the V-day because of many negative factors. But the truth is i just lied to myself and make me feel better. Duhh.. It really sound like a looser.

Like myself, i do felt that way too before. My heart was broken twice and it is so fragile now. That is why i try my best not to get involve with it. But the result is always the same. 'Bart..You cannot lie to yourself that you really need someone to love and to be loved'.

For those who had been on the same boat as mine, you guys might know what did i feel.. Sad, alone, aware and in the same time keeping some hope.
Oh..I don't know what happen to me lately..I've become so coward and keep on hiding my feeling. Did this happen to you guys aswell? I've got this feeling before but it was a long time ago and i managed to overcome with it. But now i don't know what should i do..Do i have to keep on hiding my feeling forever till i will regret someday? Or do i have to try to face the truth that i will never be a gentleman who proudly say 'I love you' to the girl that i like?
Oh God.. Did my romantic days already over??

But last night i dream of a girl. She came to me and whisper to me that she was sorry because keep me waiting and she admit that she really loves me. Oh.. I really dont want to wake up this morning. My handphone wake me up for subuh prayer.. :'(

When i think it back about my dream last night..Is there any girl out there that can accept me?Is there any girl that still can tell a guy that she likes that guy first?Is there any girl that will try her best to win my heart(Oh..i really2 missed my schooling days..Girls do fight for a guy's heart..:P)?
If there is a girl who will do anything for me, i really do loves her so much and will be hers' forever. No joke. I will make her to be my wife someday(when the time is right for sure..;) )

But..where is the love???

Tomorrow is my dad's birthday..
Talking about birthday, mesti sume terfikir ttg kek dan hadiah.. Wah..memang meriah la kalau ade party n etc.. But the main thing yg slalu wat hal kpd kite sume ialah.. Hadiah pe nk bg ek?
These days pasal dressing bkn jd 1 mslah dah..pakaian xkene pd tempatnye pn lyn jer kan..biase la tue..Bdk2 zaman skg..(mcm la im excluded..:P)
But today will be my turn to think about what present should i give to my dad.. Nk bg yg mahal2, xde duit.. maklum la..student.. Kalau bli murah2, sah2 la sok luse dah rosak n sume sakit ati..
But beg in mind the present should be simple and bermakna..And once again..pe yg nk dibeli ek?hehe..:D
Kalau la diikutkan hati n i got no limitation with moey..nak je belikan my dad a shiney porshe or an attractive ferrari for him.. Duh.. Just angan2 jer.. yela.. Our parent kan jaga n bela kite dari kecik..it is priceless..xde bende yg bleh diberi ganti dgn sume tue..
Okay2..back to the main story.. actually i wanna buy a present for him tonight.. Dah plan dari last week.. But trase takot plak nk bli..hehe..mcm nk jwb final exam plak.. hehe.. Bkn ape.. Im afraid that present doesnt suit him jer..
Nways, all the best for me..
And Happy Birthday Abah..:)
May Allah bless you always..Insyaallah..:)

Its been ages i didn't play basketball..actually basketball was 1 of my fav sport during high school and i had represented my school for couple of times..other than that are soccer, futsal, badminton, athlete and etc.
Nak dijadikan cerita..td my friend and i went to play basketball..best gler ar..walaupn da lame xmain..but its still fun throwing the ball into the basket..walaupn perlu dimengakukan bahawa 'skill'ku telah banyak terhilang entah..but ade la cket2 yg bleh digunapakai lg..but yg ketara..aku da xleh score 3pointer like i always did..:( dpt score 3pointer pn 2 kali je drp 10 percubaan..hampeh btol..mmg aku da xlayak utk bermimpi nk jd MVP(Most Valuable Player) lagi dah lah..So sad..
Tp td yg sedihnye i forgot to bring my shoe..mmg berkaki ayam la.nk pakai sandle,mmg licin..Berkaki ayam pn td da jatuh skali..it was my fault..tergelincir..duh..:(
But tyme main td,i've meet a friend back to my secondary school..xsngka bley trjmpe td..
pape pn..conclusionnye main td mmg best but memenatkan..xlupe gak td i've been picked up an foot injury..terseliuh time main td..xtaw la ble ley baik nie..hurm..:(

Oh..hari nie sungguh memenatkan..
pg td study smpai xsedar dah kul 4pagi..OMG..my class will be b at 8.30am..mmg jem la..dgn kene bgn subuh lg..nsb baik xterlepas subuh..tp xcukup tdo la..alarm fone pn asyik ditekan 'snooze' jer..n sedar2 dah 8.10..cmne nie?mandi pn da 30min..urgh..lyn jerla..lmbt pn lmbt la..jnji mandi tue wajib..hehe..tyme lmbt2 tue smpat gak dgr lagu 'everyday' by bon jovi..lagu nie cm bg smngt kpdku setiap hari utk memulakn hari yg bru..
klass bis kul 12.20 cm2 la..
blk klas g solat jumaat plak..pas2 trus g cari digital mall..fuh..pnye la pnat mencari..rupe2 mall tue da byk kali da aku lalu..just xperasan..haha..rase cm nk langgar je mall tue..:P
mlm plak kul 8.30pm g main badminton kt Bkt Jelutong..pastu dlm kul 9.30 trus mengejar g sec17 utk main futsal plak..nsb baik dpt score byk.kalau x..mmg tension gak la..haha..But Robin van Persie will always be my idol..cmne la die pnye turning pnye la lawa..i wish i can play like him..but unlucky me cz i wont get even near to his standart..he is prolific striker n a goals scoring mechine..

Pernahkah anda terfikir tentang mati?
Soalan nie la yg watkan aku tetibe fikir n tetibe takot..huhu..
Td aku blk kampung aku kt Kampung Nakhoda Kanan,dkt2 dgn Batu Caves n Selayang..
Aku g sane nk melawat kakak kpd nenek aku meninggal..
Trase tb2 nk share dgn sume org sb bile aku kt sane td..hurm..citenye begini..


Mule2 mak aku ajak blk kmpng g lawat kakak nenek aku yg bru je meninggal pagi td..
aku pk blk aku leh hntr mak aku..tp..aku lngsng xknal diorg..kire diorg sume aku pnye dua pupu ala kupu2 gitu..:P haha..tp lyn jerla..Hope dpt jmpe org yg aku knal..
ketibaan aku kt sane..mmg ade org yg aku knal..iaitu atuk n nenek aku jerla..huhu..sedih tul..yg lain pnye la ramai tp sorng pn aku xknal..sabo jerla..
kt sane..aku pnye feeling bkn sedih pun..cm xde perasaan jer..yela..bkn aku knal sgt diorg..
Tp ble da lame n byk tgk org dok sedih2 n nangis2..aku pn tb2 rase hiba plak..nape diorg perlu nangis?
aku ade dgr convo bbrape ahli keluarga diorg..n ianya mmg menyedihkan aku..trase plak cmne ble satu hari nnt aku pnye ahli kelurga pula yg pergi..
Wah..trase cm xsedia lg jer..n ble pk blk..cmne plak time aku meninggal nnt?hurm..byk bnde yg kna pk..amalan, pegangan agama n mcm2 lg la..n bygkn ble kte meninggal nnt xde org lawat..

So..morale nye ialah..kte kne wat baik kt org sb org akn sntiasa knang jasa kite smpai akhir hayat kte...n jgn lupe amalan kite kt dunia..sb sume tue la jd bekalan kite pas mati nnt...selamat beramal..:)

Today isn't my good day..
I still dlm kekesalanku smlm..
wah..ape aku dah wat??
xtrlintas nk mengungkit..
im not that type of guy yg ske mengungkit n buruk siku..
niat smlm nak gtaw aku bersungguh2 utk coba mendekatimu..
I am truly sorry..
Ade benarnye apa yg die ckp smlm..aku xwat jahat kt org..tp org wat jahat kt aku sbb perckpan aku yg watkan org xske aku..Tp..Adakah die dah xske aku??:'(
kalaulah ade doraemon..mmg aku nk g 10min sblm kejadian tue..n berdiam diri jer..cz pe yg aku wat smlm,aku luahkan pe yg ada dlm hati aku..duh..now im not trusting my heart anymore..perosak hidupku aje..Maybe the main thing is aku xde tmpt nk luahkn sumenye..Tp that was the stupidous way..OMG..Aku perlukn die blk..I know maybe someday u will read my blog..And this will be my last blog..maybe for awhile or maybe forever..I'm not ready to loose u my close friend..This is the song that i've made especially for you..Hope u will forgive me..Till the day we meet again..Insyaallah..Wassalam..

Lagu : Maafkan Daku
Penyanyi : Bart RvP22
Lagu/Lirik : Bart RvP22

Pernahkah kau simpan
Dalam hatimu
Satu kesalahanku
Buatmu terganggu

Maafkanlah diriku
Yang tak mampu aku
Buka lah hatimu
Coba memaafkan ku

Chorus:
Andainya aku
Tahu isi hatimu
Akan ku ubati
Lukamu yang itu

Telah ku fahami
Kumenyakiti kamu
Setulus hati
Maafkan daku
Maafkan daku..

Pernahkah kau coba
Selami hatiku
Sejak dulu lagi
Ingin bersamamu
Maafkan daku..

Aku tidak mengerti apakah yang terjadi
hatimu disakiti, ku amat menyesali
mungkin suatu hari, kau akan memaafi
dan ku berjanji tak akan mengulangi

Chorus:
Maafkan daku..
Tahu isi hatimu
Akan ku ubati
Lukamu yang itu

Telah ku fahami
Kumenyakiti kamu
Setulus hati
Maafkan daku
Maafkan daku..

Ampunilah ku..

Sonntag, Januar 25, 2009.

Today my mood a bit odd..
Ntahla..mcm2 aku fikir..
pening kepala la plak..
tp xde sape pn rasenye yg perlu taw pe mslh aku..
Cuz nobody will care..


This morning when im thinkin bout it and this is it..
Aku da wat keputusan..
Im gave up..tak mungkin ku bisa memilikimu..
Ku kan teruskan hidup dan kejar cita2 aku walaupn mungkin tanpa kamu..
Tgh dok mengelamun pagi td diatas katil..then lagu matahariku by agnes monica tibe2 bergema dlm kepalaku..And this song is just for u..
Bye2 to u..i will always miss u..

tertutup sudah pintu, pintu hatiku
yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
kini kau pergi dari hidupku
kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

reff1:
berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi
tak ada lagi cahaya suci
semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

reff2:
dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku
kubersedih karna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu

back to reff 1

back to reff 2

Freitag, Januar 23, 2009

Hari nie aku bagun awal..kul 6.15am..Cam biase la..wat routine harian..solat subuh pastu tido blk..hehe..
Im going to class at 8..Smpai dlm kul 8.10 cmtu la..
So excited blaja Deutsch (Bahasa German). Dlm class tue aku diberi nama Kurt Schneider. Haha..nasib baik dpt name best..kalau dpt name cm hitler n etc,sedih la gak..:P
So..Im Herr Kurt Schneider..LOL..Byk gak la kitorg blaja td dlm class german..Fun gak la class tue..Aku leh dikatakan agak teruja sbb tgh bertutur dlm bahasa negara yg aku minat..xdpt gi Jerman,dpt blaja bahasa diorg pn jadila..hehe..
Pastu class electric..Wah..dah ade assignment..Alhamdulillah aku tgk soalan tue aku rase leh wat..time tgk soalan tue,terkenang blk waktu2 kt Penang..Blaja bnde same gaks..Insyaallah aku nk score A utk subject nie..walaupn aku pnah fail paper electric time diploma dlu..hehe..
Skg kul 3..Bru pas solat Jumaat..Plan ptg nie nk gi kampus dgn kwn aku..die minta tlg ttg ape ntah..lyn jerla..
N plan mlm nie plak..aku nk kuar dgn someone..sapekah die??adela..LOL..
For sure I do care bout this person..ntahla nape..hehe..:P
Aku nk bwk die g Sunway Pyramid..Tp..actually aku dah lupe jln la..hehe..tnye Syed smlm n syed bg jln lain..nsb la kalau sesat nnt...haha..cari gak bangunan bentuk pyramid smpai jmpe..nampak ala2 pyramid pn jdla..haha..
Aku nk bg sumthin kt die mlm nie..but entahla..nnt kene mrh plak..takotnye aku..Doakan aku xmati plak kalau kene mrh nnt..haha..just kidding..xde la cm2..die baik orgnye..:)
tp aku ttp excited utk seharian nie..xsabar nk melalui hari nie smpai abis..:D


pic org xsabar n excited..:P